Hello Everyone, Sorry I haven't been keeping up with my posts. Needless to say I've been busy studying and having fun haha. I just took the second big test of the semester. Gonna find out the results tomorrow. I think that I did pretty well but I tend to make a lot of small stupid mistakes if I'm not careful so we'll see. I also took a Kanji test right after that. I dunno if I have ever studied this seriously man. Maybe I could have been a doctor or lawyer if I would have just studied more in school. Oh well.

This past weekend I relaxed and didn't do anything so much in particular. Today I hung out with my buddy from class and just walked around the city avoiding our responsibilities haha. Well I just avoided my laundry he avoided his homework! Can you believe it I am the more responsible one right now muhahahaha!!

I saw the movie with brad pitt in it. What was the name....moneyballer I think. It was nice but boy was it super slow. I was about to pee my pants towards the end and just decided to go to the bathroom. But when I got back to the movie I hadn't really missed much anyways. That's how slow that bitch movie was. Good acting though.

My friend Eri is gonna come next weekend and gonna go to Mie and maybe some other place dunno yet. So I gotta finish all my homework before I go. Looking forward to it.

When I go back to Tokyo I was thinking about going back to the Massage class and finishing that up if they will let me. I then could use it to get a part-time job massaging old hairy men.

Meanwhile I go to school and study on my own, I'll post up a picture next weekend after my travels.

explosions....gaahh

So...hello everyone. Just updating my blog. So far things have been going well. I've been studying a lot everyday and also enjoying life. I still seem to worry a lot though and I'm thinking it's affecting my stomach a lot. Sometimes my stomach is fine and then all of a sudden bam another bad meeting at the powder room. Fuck. I've been eating fairly healthy recently. Eating lots and lots of different vegetables but that even didn't go through right. Sorry I'm writing about my bowel problems. But it's common anyways so why not?

On that note what's the big deal with talking about poop. Everybody does it so I why not joke about it or just talk about it. I know it's something very personal and of course smelly but let's not be shy about this kind of thing!

Anyways I was looking up some yoga poses for better stomach health online. So I'm gonna try to do a little of that everyday and see if my tummy improves. I've been having these stomach problems for a while now actually. If this doesn't improve I'm gonna have to relent and go to the doctor.

Which I might add I did already and they said I have irritable bowel syndrome and gave me medicine that made my stomach even worse. What the hell. I'm sorry but there's just so much doctors don't know still. I really think everything changes according to each person. There shouldn't just be one way to live by or one way to cure yourself. And I hope that in the future that will change.

Anyways piece out...

I went to check out Okazaki Castle yesterday. It was just like any other castle that I have visited in Japan so I can't say I was very impressed but my roommate was really excited haha. I think it's only her second time to Japan and she has never lived here before so she still had this freshness to her...like a newborn baby type of freshness. While I have this old decrepit rotten kind of aura. (God aura is so Japanese). It kind of reminded me of why I came here in the first place. Well it reminded me of ONE of the reasons, which was I like traveling and exploring new places.

So since she was taking tons of pictures I took the opportunity to try out my new camera and try to take something decent. Hmmm....I think I need more practice. Anyways I studied like hell after I got back last night and I'm gonna study like hell today too. Yay! Actually studying is not so bad, it's too bad I hated it before. I could have been a doctor or an Engineer..or even a lawyer haha. But whatever I am here now and I am happy now anyways.

I was thinking if I can't continue this school of another three months. I want to backpack around Japan a bit before looking for a jobby. Peace out

In Okazaki Land

This is my second day already..well technically it's my third day because I'm writing this past midnight. I've been doing a lot of walking and I noticed that Okazaki is actually not as countryside as I expected. It's actually not the countryside at all. There are a number of malls around my school and dorm and everything is still a walkeable distance.

Hmmm...big malls...wide roads...fresher air...it's like back at home! Now I wish I had a car haha but oh well that's another goal in the future. I mean to get a license, not to get a car silly.

The people here are really nice too. They look so much happier and content. I saw my first real smile when I went to Uniqlo the other day haha. I wanted to look at the clerk's smile some more and stroke it....and say "本間に？”　（Kansai dialect meaning..really?)

But aside from creeping out the locals, I think I'm gonna enjoy living here for a bit.

Also I think my body is going through some kind of detox cuz I've been getting headaches really easily. The air is pretty fresh here and I haven't eaten much meat since I got here. I was thinking about going on the raw foods diet. Of course it's not to loose weight cuz I mean come on I would probably disappear or be carried away by the wind. But just to be healthy and have nicer skin. I don't want to go completely raw but I was thinking going like 60 to 70 percent....RAW

My roommate is coming tomorrow. I hope she's cool. Her name is Monika Karansci...where do you think she's from?? I'm thinking Italian??? I'm sorry if I sound really American now haha. Is it okay to put someone's name on this?? I hope so.

I'm about to head off to school tomorrow. The start of my new life...again. I think that I am always looking for something new. I don't know if that's good or not. Perhaps it's good in a sense that I always challenge myself but before it served more to be bad than a good. I'm not so good with finishing things so there were a couple of times that I left things undone. I just got too excited in the beginning and overdid it with my expectations. Now I want to concentrate on things that I haven't finished yet. First will be Japanese. This time I will study until I get to a proficient level so that I can get a comfortable job. Then I can move onto finishing other things. I think after Japanese I will concentrate on my Spanish. I just need some more vocab and speaking practice and then I should be set with Spanish. I'll finally be truly multilingual.

After that I wanna try opening my own art exhibition with some kind of project. I really wanna try to create some characters. So I was thinking maybe I could draw them or even make stuffed animals of them....hmmm..it's something that's still brewing in my head. I have a lot of mediums to work from.

I'm proud and nervous. I'm proud that I was able to make this chance for myself and I'm nervous about being able to actually finish it this time. I have this feeling like this time it will be better. I won't set a ridiculous amount of goals for myself and I will have fun with it. I'll make sure to have fun this time!

I'm free from that stinking hellhole!!!

God I'm finally done with that fucking place. I am so happy! Tokyo House Wife..I remember you saying that I might miss working there...but uhhh NO! I'm sorry I won't! I hated that place so much and I was so tired of old men flirting with me. I hated pretending to like people. That was the worst part that really killed my soul. The out right lie I had to act out almost everyday of my life pretending that I am interested in these people's lives and what they did on their free time, which I might add, was sometimes like hearing somebody scrape their nails against a blackboard.

From now on I'm gonna be a bitch when I want to and not care when there's nothing worth while to give a shit about.

If I do ever go back to teaching I'd like to do it properly. Get some certification and teach at a school or something. Corrupt some young minds muhehe.

But I'm really excited now and I can't believe I will be living in another city for three months. I'm gonna take a stack full of pictures and post them everywhere on my sites and then of course well study some Japanese haha....aww fuck.

Justice and the AMERICAN way

So I'm reading this book titled Justice right now. It's a pretty compelling book filled with various scenarios designed to make you question your own morals and your own definition of JUSTICE. There was a really interesting story about these group of sailors that got shipwrecked and were forced to survive on a lifeboat for several days. I'm sorry I forgot to mention that among the sailors was a young sickly cabin boy. So this cabin boy ends up drinking the seawater against the "strong" protests of his fellow wreck mates and becomes deadly ill. The sailors figuring that the boywas on his way to the golden gates decide to kill and eat him in order to survive long enough until help comes. So the book questions whether the sailors had the right to assume that the boy was going to die anyways and kill him for the good of all. Well....well if you think about it yes, I guess in the end they didn't really have the right to decide that it was the boy's time to go. But if I were a sailor on a lifeboat without any food or water...and the other passenger was a small sickly boy or girl...I guess my survival instincts would kick in and I would totally sashimi that bitch

Preparing my mind for student life

So I'm quiting my job in two weeks and going to move to another city not so far away from where I am. I'm excited but it's finally starting to hit me down in my gut. I feel it in my chest too a bit as well. I guess you can call that anxiety. But it's a good anxiety...I'm just hoping that I'll be alright with money and that I'll be able to improve my Japanese to a good enough level.

I don't want to go back to teaching middle-aged pen-pushers. These people who work at least 10 hours a day and then instead of skipping off happily to see their wife and children they skip off to the local bar to get shit-faced with other coworkers also in denial of how messed up their families are.

Angry much? Yes a little, I am just tired of this job and I will not become the typical foreigner who lives in a country and has no connection to it's people and culture. Time to get serious. Dead serious....muhahahehehahehssasablaahhh