explosions....gaahh

So...hello everyone. Just updating my blog. So far things have been going well. I've been studying a lot everyday and also enjoying life. I still seem to worry a lot though and I'm thinking it's affecting my stomach a lot. Sometimes my stomach is fine and then all of a sudden bam another bad meeting at the powder room. Fuck. I've been eating fairly healthy recently. Eating lots and lots of different vegetables but that even didn't go through right. Sorry I'm writing about my bowel problems. But it's common anyways so why not?

On that note what's the big deal with talking about poop. Everybody does it so I why not joke about it or just talk about it. I know it's something very personal and of course smelly but let's not be shy about this kind of thing!

Anyways I was looking up some yoga poses for better stomach health online. So I'm gonna try to do a little of that everyday and see if my tummy improves. I've been having these stomach problems for a while now actually. If this doesn't improve I'm gonna have to relent and go to the doctor.

Which I might add I did already and they said I have irritable bowel syndrome and gave me medicine that made my stomach even worse. What the hell. I'm sorry but there's just so much doctors don't know still. I really think everything changes according to each person. There shouldn't just be one way to live by or one way to cure yourself. And I hope that in the future that will change.

Anyways piece out...

I went to check out Okazaki Castle yesterday. It was just like any other castle that I have visited in Japan so I can't say I was very impressed but my roommate was really excited haha. I think it's only her second time to Japan and she has never lived here before so she still had this freshness to her...like a newborn baby type of freshness. While I have this old decrepit rotten kind of aura. (God aura is so Japanese). It kind of reminded me of why I came here in the first place. Well it reminded me of ONE of the reasons, which was I like traveling and exploring new places.

So since she was taking tons of pictures I took the opportunity to try out my new camera and try to take something decent. Hmmm....I think I need more practice. Anyways I studied like hell after I got back last night and I'm gonna study like hell today too. Yay! Actually studying is not so bad, it's too bad I hated it before. I could have been a doctor or an Engineer..or even a lawyer haha. But whatever I am here now and I am happy now anyways.

I was thinking if I can't continue this school of another three months. I want to backpack around Japan a bit before looking for a jobby. Peace out

In Okazaki Land

This is my second day already..well technically it's my third day because I'm writing this past midnight. I've been doing a lot of walking and I noticed that Okazaki is actually not as countryside as I expected. It's actually not the countryside at all. There are a number of malls around my school and dorm and everything is still a walkeable distance.

Hmmm...big malls...wide roads...fresher air...it's like back at home! Now I wish I had a car haha but oh well that's another goal in the future. I mean to get a license, not to get a car silly.

The people here are really nice too. They look so much happier and content. I saw my first real smile when I went to Uniqlo the other day haha. I wanted to look at the clerk's smile some more and stroke it....and say "本間に？”　（Kansai dialect meaning..really?)

But aside from creeping out the locals, I think I'm gonna enjoy living here for a bit.

Also I think my body is going through some kind of detox cuz I've been getting headaches really easily. The air is pretty fresh here and I haven't eaten much meat since I got here. I was thinking about going on the raw foods diet. Of course it's not to loose weight cuz I mean come on I would probably disappear or be carried away by the wind. But just to be healthy and have nicer skin. I don't want to go completely raw but I was thinking going like 60 to 70 percent....RAW

My roommate is coming tomorrow. I hope she's cool. Her name is Monika Karansci...where do you think she's from?? I'm thinking Italian??? I'm sorry if I sound really American now haha. Is it okay to put someone's name on this?? I hope so.

I'm about to head off to school tomorrow. The start of my new life...again. I think that I am always looking for something new. I don't know if that's good or not. Perhaps it's good in a sense that I always challenge myself but before it served more to be bad than a good. I'm not so good with finishing things so there were a couple of times that I left things undone. I just got too excited in the beginning and overdid it with my expectations. Now I want to concentrate on things that I haven't finished yet. First will be Japanese. This time I will study until I get to a proficient level so that I can get a comfortable job. Then I can move onto finishing other things. I think after Japanese I will concentrate on my Spanish. I just need some more vocab and speaking practice and then I should be set with Spanish. I'll finally be truly multilingual.

After that I wanna try opening my own art exhibition with some kind of project. I really wanna try to create some characters. So I was thinking maybe I could draw them or even make stuffed animals of them....hmmm..it's something that's still brewing in my head. I have a lot of mediums to work from.

I'm proud and nervous. I'm proud that I was able to make this chance for myself and I'm nervous about being able to actually finish it this time. I have this feeling like this time it will be better. I won't set a ridiculous amount of goals for myself and I will have fun with it. I'll make sure to have fun this time!